3 is the magic number.

Hello, all. It has been a while. I don't really know how many people read this so I shall just write as if I am explaining something to someone else.  :D 

I spent a good three days with Chelsea, my soon to be boothang. I don't know when it's gonna happen, but it's gonna happen. 

On Friday, I went to her place after she finished her oral at school, because she was too lazy to go to cross country (IT WAS YOUR LAST CROSS COUNTRY) and I spent most of the day just relaxing with her and enjoying each other's company. Prior to all this, though, we had talked about kissing and whatnot and I brought up the topic of The Triangle. The Triangle is an indication of wanting to kiss or be kissed. The triangle goes from one eye to the other, then the lips, and back to the first eye. Mmm, dat triangle. But continuing with the story, we were staring at each other’s eyes and I kept staring at her and she kept switching between both eyes. I was waiting for the triangle. She told me she did the triangle, but I kept staring. Huehuehue but after a while, I went in for it. Mmmm that moment of ‘holy shit, oh damn, WHOOOOOO, YOU’RE IN BRAH, Mmm I wonder how she’s feeling, DAYUM BROTHER, control them emotions’ and more, but I just can’t really put it into words. But yeah, spent the day just being cuddly and shizmanilly.

Moving along, it’s Saturday. We had decided to head out to the city on Saturday and watch a movie, Warm Bodies. The movie wasn’t that exhilarating, but it really cut into your emotions like a hot butter knife. There were funny moments, and in my opinion, they were seriously funny, but they never lasted long. Bitches, man. But anyway, the movie ended and we went to window shop for a bit. We went to Ice but that was closed so we went to Colette, which was also closed. We then decided to go to Myer, in the perfume section. Originally, I was looking for cologne for myself, but we were greeted by a worker in the perfume section.
He gave us suggestions as to what smelled nice and there were two that caught her attention. I can’t remember the names because, you know, it’s me. :D But yeah, there was one that was expensive as fuck and one that was limited addition and on sale, so naturally, being the easily persuaded little shit I am, I wanted to buy it for her, because she seemed to really enjoy that smell. She was going all spastic and shit because I said I was going to buy it, but I know she wanted it. Huehuehuehue >=D The worker gave us a few samples each and I’m currently wearing Davidoff ‘The Game.’ It’s okay, but I’m still not sure whether I like this one or Champion. Oh wells, we’ll see. :D
But yeah, after we finished at Myer, we walked for a bit and then decided to eat at Matdongsan or someshit, I can’t remember. Gosh, I can’t remember anything. T_T So, we went up, ordered food and we talked for a long while. She was all like, ‘I’m paying for dinner man!’ and I was like, ‘okay okay,’ but I decided to pay anyways, and she had no idea what was going on. Huehuehue >=) But yeah, she spazzed more at me and I kept grinning like =D Because you know, yolo. Buy yeah, caught the bus and headed back to her place. Spent a long time at her place and I just kept pushing my leave time, because I didn’t want to go and she didn’t want me to go so I stayed for an extra hour or so. We kissed a little. She kissed me mid-speech, many times. Mmm felt good. Faggot side of me inside was all like, ‘OH DAYUM, BRO, SHE ALL OVER YOU. YOU IN BRAHS. YOU IN FO SHO.’ But yeah, that’s what I was thinking to myself. :D Then after a while of constant fear of her mum walking in, I had to leave, because it was already 9:50. It was really dark so I took the somewhat longer path home, in case of being attacked in the dark.

Now, we shall move on, to Sunday. Sunday was pretty awesome I reckon. I went to have lunch with her after she finished JAC. For some reason, I doubt she did much work, but that’s no relevant. I went to eat at a restaurant with her and then after we finished eating and talking, we went to her auntie, who was driving us back to her place. I met her two little cousins. One was shy and the other was outgoing. I’d explain everything I did but that’d take way too long. So, I’ll just sum it up and say that I spent a while mucking around and entertaining the kids while her and her auntie were looking at some papers. After she’d finished, she was all trying to get the kids away from me, because she was jealous of them. Huehuehue. She played some kiddy ass anime and the kids were paying their full attention and her and I went into the room. At first it was all just little bit of this, little bit of that, and then I started getting adventurous.  I’m pretty sure you people know what I mean considering past blogs and such. Lewl.

I guess in summary of the three-day-fun-time, Friday was a getting to know where we at phase, Saturday was putting theory into practice, and Sunday was Adventure Time. And might I add, I loved all three days. It was great for me and I hope that it was more than great for her.

I really enjoy this feeling that I get when I’m with her. I don’t know, it’s just different, but in a good way, and I’m glad that she’s the one that I can feel it with. This is probably the first time that I’ve done something for myself and made myself happy, but I’m also glad that in the process, I could make someone else happy. I’m glad that she’s the one I can have a feeling of self-indulgence but also feel like I’m sharing the self-indulgence. I don’t even know if I’m making sense anymore but yeah! Sharing a feeling of self-indulgence makes total sense.

Anyhow, time to wrap this up from when I started writing it (9:30am ish).

Have a good day, my lovelies.

MunkeeBoii~  

Had a talk with my mum in the car about mah boothang. LOL

Can't really remember but it the information leading up to the section I wanna talk about was that I brought up why she was afraid of my mum and such like that. It was related to being loud and it went sorta like this:

Me: Because she's loud??
Mum: If she's loud then she has to fix it
Me: Fix it? But that's who she is, you can't fix that. Everyone's different!
Mum: And that's exactly why she should fix it!
Me: That makes no sense! What if I like her loud and crazy???
Mum: She still has to fix it! If she doesn't, then she won't be liked by your parents or grandparents. They won't even want to look at you when you're at your wedding!
Me: But it's my happiness! It's what I want! You're you and I'm me and we want different things!
Mum: But look at me and your dad. I'm not loud and that's why she should change herself to be more quiet.
Me: Oh, so you're saying you're perfect??
Mum: No, but I'm quiet.
Me: But I don't want quiet! It's boring!
Mum: But when choosing your partner, you have to think about your family and what they think about them.
Me: BUT IT'S MY CHOICE. I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY THINK. IT'LL BE MY OWN HAPPINESS. IF THEY DON'T WANNA LOOK AT ME AGAIN THEN FINE.

Then I just walked into the house muttering to myself. lewl.

Ayo whatup my niggah. You asked me to express mah feelz and that's impossible online so I'll basically just go into detail about mah feelz, sorta. LOL

My feelz for you are not explainable and yet at the same time, they are. Although we both have had experience with relationships, I still want to share the first things of our relationship. We ain't even officially together yet. What am I saying. But yeah, it's obviously inevitable. The way I feel about you, is such a way that it leaves me dumbfounded as to bring it to words. You say that I sum up my feelings concisely, but I'm having a hard time doing it right now. That should give you a clear indication as to how strong these feelings really are.

During the time I met you up until now, you have been there for basically all my major shits and all my happy times. Some of the best happy times were actually spent with you. Over time, however, certain emotions began to bubble up, from both ends, but they eventually went away. Then, being the temperamental sort of emotions we have, they arose, once again. We even had them at the same time without realising! D:

But yes, at the time, we both decided to stay besties. Actually, you brought it up when we decided that aye? WAS THAT WHEN YOUR EMOTIONS WERE FUCKING WITH YOU? But anyway, calming down again, we had feelings for each other, and we never knew, and I should have noticed it back then but I guess my morals were overpowering back then. lewl.

That time when I came over to talk to you about David, I wanted to give you a long deep hug. One where you're just all raging, then I just hug you and say, 'it's okay, he's just a little piece of shit that got smeared across Gollum's little patch of cloth.' After Phuong, I never knew you felt that way which is why, at the time, I decided to not tell you how I felt, because we already decided to stay friends at the time.

Then, after all that, I had found someone else and at the time, she became one of the hugest factors of my happiness. I'm pretty sure you know exactly how I felt; I couldn't go a day without talking to her, I'd always want to talk to her about anything, just as long as there was talking. It was just a great deal of infatuation at the time.

(This is just basically going through all my feelz LOL)

But yes, I decided that I'd chase after her, and that I was hell-bent on being with her. During the course of my relationship, however, you told me that you had cases where you had emotions for me, some of which, may have been similar to your own. I kept suppressing and denying them, though. This went on for a little while, I suppose which leads us to the current situation.

We confessed to each other about how we felt about each other and all the times we had those feelings. I told myself that I wouldn't succumb to them but obviously, they were far too strong for me to resist; you were too much to resist. Even though I had a girlfriend at the time, you were the one-sided decision. During the five days I was away, I thought about my entire relationship I had with you from when I met you. Although we didn't see each other very often towards the beginning of our relationship, we still conversed and in all honesty, talking with you was great. It felt nice talking to someone so, 'real.' At this time, I had never imagined myself to be so close with you. I never thought of it as more of a one time meeting and never talking again. But anyway, I'm drifting off topic.

The way I feel for you, will always be the same. Ehhhh Nah, the way I feel for you, as of this moment, is one that blows other girls out of the water. You told me that the way you felt me made David seem so insignificant. To me, right now, you are the source of my happiness, the source of great comfort, you are my best friend and soon enough, you will be my lover. The feelings I had for you were strong enough for me to want to be with you, despite me having a partner. You are no home-wrecker, you are my happiness, my dark sunshine, my happy times and you will always reside in my happy place (sorta like a heaven, not jerking material). Although we've known each other for three years, and I've visited you in your home, seen you at your best, your worst, your highest and your lowest, I still get nervous being with you.

Every time I'm with you, I always seem to get nervous. There's just something about you that drives me insane.

I guess all I can say to try and attempt to sum up everything there is:

You mean to me more than honey means too Pooh, more than Minato and Kushina mean to Naruto, more than water means to people and you mean to me, more than Pikachu means to Ash. You create a swirling vortex of crazy emotions within my very core and you just stir up every support beam that keeps me calm and collected. Also, you make me very hungry and I always want to EAT whenever YOU are around.

K. I've said enough. When you finally read this, which is I don't know when, but understand that even though it seems pretty detailed, it's still not accurate. Well, the last bit is, just everything else I'm unsure of.

Peace, Panda ♥

MunkeeBoii~

That feeling when...

you don't want to be the one who's left hurting again. When you want to grab her by the shoulders and just scream to her exactly how you feel. When you feel belittled and absolutely scared by her.

When you just want to be loved back as much as you love her.

WARNING! NOW THAT YOU READ THE FIRST WORD, YOU WILL BE HAUNTED BY THE FOLLOWING POST. Well, only if you're innocent and shit but if you're fucked up like me, then you should be completely fine and don't have to worry about anything that's being said. lol.

Well then, it has been quite a while since I have last blogged. The only reason I'm back on is because a faggot of a friend of mine was all like, OMG YOU SHOULD SO TOTALLY LIKE, UH, GET BACK ON, LIKE, TOTALLY. and I was all like, BUT I FORGOT MY PASSWORD and she was all like, MAKE A NEW ONE. But I reset my password and now I'm back on this blog, as you can see...unless I hacked into this account and am using it illegally...I've said too much.
- A

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA That bitch knows exactly what I'm doing and she's probably gonna spaz about it. lewl. I just farted. ANYway, back to the main point; I am here to recap my life, ish, so far. Whoa, it's been like, ages since I've posted. O_o Since found a partner again. SORRY BLOGSPOT, I'VE NEGLECTED YOU BECAUSE I FOUND SOMEONE NEW!!!!!!!!!! D:
Buuuut anyway, I'll try to sum up some of the major events that have occurred until now. I shall try to go in order as much as possible.

Got a gf, had a disagreement with my gf, pretty sure I had another disagreement, went to semi formal with my friend, went to my own formal with my gf, graduated from high school, applied for my first ever job, had a disagreement with my gf, talked to my gf again, began uni, changed my courses, fell six weeks behind. lol yeah, that's it really. Nothing else major. I'll try to blog more often. Now, it'll be a normal post, ish. I tend to omit things and only one person would really know what I'm (I just farted) omitting. Bitch, you know who you are.

Hmm, today has been okay, I guess. Had like, a deep as talk with my dear friend, which got so deep that like, you couldn't even swing a line down to retrieve it sorta deep. But, I would say that it was the best conversation I've had, ever. It wasn't the sorta typical conversations about deep topics I usually have. I'm usually very passive when it comes to those conversations but this one was like, holy shit, I'm actually saying something! I guess that conversation made me realise that I have to be doing that from now; I have to be expressing how I feel, when I feel it, instead of just hiding it behind laughter and smiles. Fuck, I sound like a girl when she's all, 'I may smile, but I'm hurting deep inside,' or some shit. HAHAHAH But yes, that is how I feel about the conversation. Bitch is gonna bring this up when I tell her that I've updated my blog. She's gonna be saying shit to me. But after she's reading this, she's going to try to respond in an opposite manner to what I've said. You're stuck in a predicament now, bitch. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Anyway, I stayed up until 1:30 talking to her about it and I won't tell what the topic was, it was just very deep. But yes, I went to sleep at 1:30am, woke up at 5:30am, showered, got driven to work, worked for what felt like a 16 hour fucking shift. I mean seriously! I looked at the clock, 10:00am then I go do a few things and come back, it's only 10:10am. Like, FUCK YOU TIME. But yeah, my shift was over and I headed out to my university.

I currently study at the University of Southern Queensland, located in Springfield. (Fuck, I'm hungry again. I'll be right back. 7:08pm-7:13pm) I AM BACK MAH FRANZ. I just got three packets of chips. Holy shit, I'm a fat mother fucker. Also, my ears are burning. Dem 0nlin3 vi@gr@ pi11s. HAHAHAHAH Anyway, back to my story, I study at USQ! Well, I don't really study, I just dick around and I guess blogging will be a new thing. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA I'm a bit high. The security guard almost locked me in the common room. lol. I'm dat black. Anyway, next week, from the 8th to the 12th of April, I am going to be in Toowoomba, attending residential school. :D Not happy about it. :( I just want to do tafe shit!!! :(
Anyways, I've given up on myself when it comes to running my life. :D Can't follow my own advice so what's the point anymore. I give up. OH NO, THE ANGRY BITCHING SIDE OF ME IS COMING BACK. -slaps my own face- HAHAHAHAHAHHA Bitch, you crazy. I don't know what to say anymore, I've got nothing more to do. Sadlyf. Texting that slut of a friend.

- Well then, I guess that's all there is from me. Be happy! :D
+ Don't listen to him, he's crazy! D:
- Fuck you, you're the same person.
+ NO! I WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AS YOU.
- As long as you are me, I'll be you're platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold.
+  NO. SHUT THE FUCK UP. NO MORE JUSTIN BIEBER SHIT.
- But, baby, baby, baby, oh...that hurts.
+  I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU.
- Rape me first. ;)
+  You know, I will do so. Ayo, Right hand, fuck yoself.
> Fuck off, tell left hand to do it. That cunt's been doing nothing for the past 5 years that this faggot realised his hand can be used as a substitute for a vagina.
< BUT HE LOVES YOU MORE.
> I DON'T WANT TO GET ALL HAIRY AND SHIT, HAND.
< You've already got a hairy back; I don't know what you're complaining about...
^ Hey guys, what are you talking about? ^^
< > SETTLE THE FUCK DOWN, I DON'T WANT TO HAVE TO TOUCH YOU AGAIN.
^ :(
- + GUYS, SHUT THE FUCK UP, HE CAN'T THINK. WHAT IF HE STARTS FUCKING A SLUT IN THE ALLEY?
< > Sorry....
^ Did someone say, 'fucking?'

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA My bit of randomness for you. Enjoy.

MunkeeBoii~