Ayo whatup my niggah. You asked me to express mah feelz and that's impossible online so I'll basically just go into detail about mah feelz, sorta. LOL

My feelz for you are not explainable and yet at the same time, they are. Although we both have had experience with relationships, I still want to share the first things of our relationship. We ain't even officially together yet. What am I saying. But yeah, it's obviously inevitable. The way I feel about you, is such a way that it leaves me dumbfounded as to bring it to words. You say that I sum up my feelings concisely, but I'm having a hard time doing it right now. That should give you a clear indication as to how strong these feelings really are.

During the time I met you up until now, you have been there for basically all my major shits and all my happy times. Some of the best happy times were actually spent with you. Over time, however, certain emotions began to bubble up, from both ends, but they eventually went away. Then, being the temperamental sort of emotions we have, they arose, once again. We even had them at the same time without realising! D:

But yes, at the time, we both decided to stay besties. Actually, you brought it up when we decided that aye? WAS THAT WHEN YOUR EMOTIONS WERE FUCKING WITH YOU? But anyway, calming down again, we had feelings for each other, and we never knew, and I should have noticed it back then but I guess my morals were overpowering back then. lewl.

That time when I came over to talk to you about David, I wanted to give you a long deep hug. One where you're just all raging, then I just hug you and say, 'it's okay, he's just a little piece of shit that got smeared across Gollum's little patch of cloth.' After Phuong, I never knew you felt that way which is why, at the time, I decided to not tell you how I felt, because we already decided to stay friends at the time.

Then, after all that, I had found someone else and at the time, she became one of the hugest factors of my happiness. I'm pretty sure you know exactly how I felt; I couldn't go a day without talking to her, I'd always want to talk to her about anything, just as long as there was talking. It was just a great deal of infatuation at the time.

(This is just basically going through all my feelz LOL)

But yes, I decided that I'd chase after her, and that I was hell-bent on being with her. During the course of my relationship, however, you told me that you had cases where you had emotions for me, some of which, may have been similar to your own. I kept suppressing and denying them, though. This went on for a little while, I suppose which leads us to the current situation.

We confessed to each other about how we felt about each other and all the times we had those feelings. I told myself that I wouldn't succumb to them but obviously, they were far too strong for me to resist; you were too much to resist. Even though I had a girlfriend at the time, you were the one-sided decision. During the five days I was away, I thought about my entire relationship I had with you from when I met you. Although we didn't see each other very often towards the beginning of our relationship, we still conversed and in all honesty, talking with you was great. It felt nice talking to someone so, 'real.' At this time, I had never imagined myself to be so close with you. I never thought of it as more of a one time meeting and never talking again. But anyway, I'm drifting off topic.

The way I feel for you, will always be the same. Ehhhh Nah, the way I feel for you, as of this moment, is one that blows other girls out of the water. You told me that the way you felt me made David seem so insignificant. To me, right now, you are the source of my happiness, the source of great comfort, you are my best friend and soon enough, you will be my lover. The feelings I had for you were strong enough for me to want to be with you, despite me having a partner. You are no home-wrecker, you are my happiness, my dark sunshine, my happy times and you will always reside in my happy place (sorta like a heaven, not jerking material). Although we've known each other for three years, and I've visited you in your home, seen you at your best, your worst, your highest and your lowest, I still get nervous being with you.

Every time I'm with you, I always seem to get nervous. There's just something about you that drives me insane.

I guess all I can say to try and attempt to sum up everything there is:

You mean to me more than honey means too Pooh, more than Minato and Kushina mean to Naruto, more than water means to people and you mean to me, more than Pikachu means to Ash. You create a swirling vortex of crazy emotions within my very core and you just stir up every support beam that keeps me calm and collected. Also, you make me very hungry and I always want to EAT whenever YOU are around.

K. I've said enough. When you finally read this, which is I don't know when, but understand that even though it seems pretty detailed, it's still not accurate. Well, the last bit is, just everything else I'm unsure of.

Peace, Panda ♥

MunkeeBoii~