today was much better then yesterday. i got more active and had more fun then i have had in ages. i am going to take phuong's advice and follow my heart. that means that i will wait for next year and hope that she will say yes. or i can do something now and make it a high chance that she will say yes.

i really want to be friends with lots of people but some of them aren't really friends and its puts the burden for me to choose which one of them i want to be friends with. for example, i want to be friends with the asian girls that phuong hangs around with and i want to be friends with han. but at the moment, they are not really friends and han hangs with us so i feel like i have to be her friends even though i know i dont have to. for some reason though, the girls that hang with phuong always gives me the evils. oh well, i guess its something i cant help. and han is leaving at the end of the semester so that will clear things up a bit. and people generally dont like han, but i dont see why they dont like her so much. i guess its coz i dont know her that well. or maybe i dont really notice the "flirting" that she does.