Now my life is at the point where I have no idea what to do in my personal affairs. I don't know how Phuong feels about me and I might do something that will make her feel angry at me or not like me at all. If she doesn't like me, I will say that I understand but in reality, I wouldn't understand why she wouldn't like me. I would act or normal at school and everything but deep down, I would be so hurt and confused. But only then will I know where my life is heading and I can finally make solid, concrete decisions. If she does decide to go out with me, I would be very happy. But if she read this before she made her decision, I wouldn't be extremely happy. Because I'll be thinking that she read this and that she feels like she's doing the right thing. It's completely up to her and if she doesn't go out with me, I would be really depressed and down but I won't let that get the better of me. I will try to live my normal life everyday but it will hurt me a lot. I just hope that I don't hurt the important people around me.